now

now i regret
now it feels oh so bad
now my heart aches
like when the hungry
hungers for bread

i guess it has surfaced once again
after months of being kept
deep within

the loneliness i feel
manifesting itself as it will
the uncontrollable strain
in which there is nothing to gain

theres no lessons to be learnt
at least not one that i seem to discern

but yet all is calm and well
i wonder,
why
how long
and how
i put up with it all

so many questions
i cant even answer myself
why is it that i find
that i put myself in situations
that people make me dig within myself
for answers
that perhaps
time can never tell