defrost me

i feel like i've grown cold again... retracted back into my shell, preferring to be alone. i no longer understand how people fall so deeply in love. Friends around me take weeks to forget someone but it seems like years since i truely felt that i 'fell in love' than again.. did it ever happen before?

why? i do not know. Its not like i don't feel anithing for u roy, but i just can't draw the line at this point of time..

i am, indecisive, fickle... i try not to be, but sometimes it just gets beyond my control where i need to depend on someone else, or just feel that there is no answer. Sigh, its like my life got outta control again where i just do things rashly and irrationally.

i am at a lost.