baby steps... 1, 2, 3

it isnt easy to understand myself, or the people around me, or the world.. but i guess deep down inside everybody faces the same problem even though they fail to come to terms with it... everybody has their own world they live their illusional lives in - thats not wrong, thats how things are..

one of the greatest threats to my own life is myself. being confident is one thing, taking things for granted is another. i guess i have been too disillusioned for too long, clouded by my make-believe perfect world that i grew too stubornly defensive about.

time to wake up, be open, understand how other people's lives function. Everybody thinks differently but i guess the key is to try to understand n break the levels of resistance of acceptance. put it simply, "ray, be less stuborn"

sigh, m talking to myself, wonder if thats healthy.. hmm =X

hehe, but somehow felt much happier today,
someone made me wait, again, but it didnt make me angry..
someone made last min changes, forcing me take the trouble to travel, but it didnt make me angry..
and the few short hrs of time spent, though simple.. was worth the effort..
i smiled inside once again..

damn, i guess i shld stop behaving like a spoilt prick

but changes occur slowly, always has been.. baby steps 1, 2, 3