bummer

As i peer through the side of the cool dark cave, the piercing rays screech into my vision. the terrain outside is daunting, changing, interesting .. unlike the mundane serenity of the cave. outside i see figures similar to me, and they seem to be doing well... juz as animals in herds feel safe in numbers, i guess i shouldnt have any problems trying to be just like them.

i take a reluctant but determined step out, opening my wincing eyes, it was far easier then i imagined, far nicer, in fact pleasant... instead of being excited, my next step was just as hesitant, one step at a time, feeling the soft warm sand between my toes, so different from the cold damn floors of the cave i have hid in.

taking a confident 3rd step, something surprising occurs just at the right time to throw me off balance. The ground shakes, winds blow and sand shift... all of a sudden the land seems to tilt at an angle, forcing me to slide back into the direction of the cave. the sweeping waves of sand swim by my feet. I fall to my hands and knees to maintain my hold but the pull is too great. My fingers dig into the ground - i am not going to give up so easily. Grit gets lodged inbetween my fingernails, my panting and wheezing to no advail..

i realise i took 3 steps forward only to get thrown 2 steps back