gravity

bring gravity
back to my feet.
fit the bits and pieces
of my floating soul
bit by bit.

disappointment
one after another
shatters dreams so much
my mind seems to dissapate
into the never ending abliss

whats with the expectations?
whats with the mask?
i sometimes feel like screaming
"leave me alone"
but yet, i created this of me

i understand myself, not
i understand whats going on, not
life is good, not

what the ...?
why.... ?

i feel like i've lost gravity
i've lost my sense of... things
i've lost a reason
so much for a good coming of age
this 21st birthday
in fact i worry so much about that day
more expectations...

life's so.. ... .. so many things
so... .. much
so... .. many things

yet words reach not my mind
before they float away