Water

Isnt water magnificent?
it seeps through the tiniest crack
soaks through wood
rusts iron
decays food.
it can always finds a route
it can break down walls of stone
it intrigues us when it falls,
especially when it falls like soot.

if u believe in horoscopes,
perhaps you have heard before of the elements,
earth fire wind water air.
born between 2 star signs,
gemini n cancer,
i grew to learn i probably embodied a little of both
gemini having split personalities,
doesnt help giving me a hint of having three.

Life isnt always about choices,
sometimes,
its shove to us without a choice.
Like our birth date (which we can fake)
or our names (which we can change)
a little known fact
which might interest a few,
i have a skin problem
(that many already knew)
it burns up in tiny blisters,
eager to burst its yellow juices
red moist wounds that never seem to heal
oozing blood sometimes if i scratched as i will..
a "curse" i have learnt to live with
for the epitome of it has long been over...

so many years ago,
primary 4 was when it began
thats.. 1995?
if im 21 this year,
that marks half my life
wow, i didnt even realise it till here..
decked in white shirt and turquiose shorts,
(and i wasnt that tan before)
its quite hard to hide something red and screaming,
and u can't count on kids to be understanding.

if you don't get what im driving at,
i'd spell it out for you.
some kids are popular,
some are invisible,
some get picked on..
probably due to visible flaws that aren't really their fault.
i had a hard time,
the worst i remembered was this girl asking if it were
"contagious"
as a kid it bugged me alot,
but looking back im kinda thankful for it.

conversations sometimes make u smarter,
you learn more about things,
and sometimes even about yourself.
it stirs up points your mind picked up,
even though you didnt pay attention to it before.

sometimes in my sadness as that child,
i felt as if a pond of water had pooled within me
if i concentrated on it hard enough,
in it formed my reflection,
whom i started conversing with.
a silly a thought,
of a foolish child,
but this reflection grew
size, maturity.. whatever..
my inner self i suppose
and with it i grew my thought.

i guess im not alone,
but maybe my reflection is particularly strong,
thinking alot, i guess made me grow
conversing with myself, i picked up points.
why 'she' or 'he' was popular,
what made mum angry or happy
how to tackle Singapore education.
with this pointers, later on in life,
some saw me as a source for advise
some found me interesting
some found me plain irritating.

Life with its meanders can get tricky,
one moment you are carried along
at high velocity,
and the next you get stuck at a turn.
At times i guess i had started to ignore the pond,
it gets distorted when you are drunk
or fades when you are busy
or when your mind idles when chatting
(sometimes)

but ever so
the power of water
for when it trickles from your eyes
down you face
the tinkle it makes upon hitting the pond,
resonantes
it pools,
it grows once again.
smiling back at you
someone who will never forget you
or think you are too vain.