im losing myself

im losing myself...
i care not to say why
so many times i repeat myself
yet he only wants to say goodbye

he says i dun understand
i feel that he doesnt understand
that when he says its forever
it should mean forever

it just ended like dat
in a second, in a splat...
just coz of that fucker william soh
and not forgetting rayner too

i noe i sound like a whiney bitch
so let me be, just like another grain of sand on the beach
let me whine, smoke, cry for all i care
leave me alone.. alone in my despair...

how often do 2 people feel they are meant for each other forever
or maybe im just deluded
after my years of waiting
that the one special thing in my life..
perhaps was lying ..

i see ur falling..
putting ur finger, den hand den head into the blender
5K, 12K .. expensive meals..
i warned, u felt i nagged...

and why do people nag,
coz they care
yet when i nag,
u fled from me for all u cared...

i am a burden?
than let go?
but we both cant let go
u big fat liar...

liberated my cold frozen heart
brought me to heaven
den shoved me,
stomped on me into hell

i hate
myself?
my life?
you

but i love you