almost a month

Almost a month since my last post.

why havent i been posting? coz i was doing alot of thinking, and at the point of my last post.. i was kinda tired of being judged or in fact letting anyone know what was going through my head.. Perhaps i was too caught up in the whirlwinds in the circle, or my circle of friends. Perhaps as ken said... i needed a break from one potential relationship to the next, each seemingly always leaving me distraut.

owell, enough of dat, i managed to pull my leg out of the sticky muddy water, wait for the mud to dry n now flake off whatevers left. Time spent well.
I feel older, i wouldnt say jaded but maybe to that effect. I have seen things change, people change, and the way treat people, as if like musical chairs, the tables sometimes get turned or you never get caught in the same position again.

what i realise is, mum was right all along, ur friends might most possibly change but whats most important is family. And might i add, str8 frens over aj frens. Not that i dont treasure my aj frens, i do... but somehow things just shift so fast, like ripples on a waterface and not like cracks on a rock face.

i've been away for awhile, taking a breather perhaps, maybe a little too hostile to some around me. I apologise and have been apologising (occassionally). hehe.. owell, the sun shines again, and the rays spread all around..

n im beginning to like my new nickname..
xiao ray..
hehe.. but better not use it outside camp =)