Man

Was taking a step back
looking at life
its kinda comical really.

was reading xiaxue's blog
about how people critisize
people complain about everything
really
but how?
and why?

it seems people have this tendency
to blame
to shoot
to defame.

when i was young i was told once before,
its the insecure who do so
because it makes them feel better

now much older
(but not that old yet)
i think it might still hold true,
but not always though,
some just do it outta fun

its more like a lack of (my own view of) morality
selfishness
unacceptance that entails oppression

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i still blame you.
for causing me pain
its been months
and i cant bring myself to see
how u could treat me so insignificantly

all throughout you managed to make me believe
that it was the one special thing in my life
and yet in the end
it was like,
just a fling in your life

how sad to hear
"if you ask me to choose between biz n you, i would choose biz"
"you wana live your life being a nothing?"
when it is also you who said
"i love you because you are the only one who understands n listens"

so its a notion between being lonely yet popular, or a happy simpleton.
why lonely yet popular?
coz you get all the attention in the world.
from models who flirt
(and whom u fuck)
stars, mediacorp yada yada...
and yet you told me you were lonely.

fuck..
why am i still thinking about your life.
when you already screwed up mine.
why did i intwine my life so much into yours
when you hardly even bothered about mine?

i guess i was just stupid
and im starting to blame myself more than blame you
yeap, if it doesnt kill you it only makes you stronger
if theres something i learnt this year
is that people can be much more selfish than imaginable
than again maybe its coz im just so naive to see
the world isnt as beautiful as its made to be